Victoria Parker knew her dad’s behavior toward her was a little unusual, but she convinced herself everything was fine—until she found herself locked out of the house at 3:00 a.m., surrounded by flashing police lights. Now, dumped into a crowded, chaotic foster home, Victoria has to tiptoe around her domineering foster mother, get through senior year at a new school, and somehow salvage her college dreams . . . all while keeping her past hidden. But some secrets won’t stay buried—especially when unwanted memories make Victoria freeze up at random moments and nightmares disrupt her sleep. Even worse, she can’t stop worrying about her stepsister Sarah, left behind with her father. All she wants is to move forward, but how do you focus on the future when the past won’t leave you alone?
Page Count: 352
Trim Size: 5.25 x 8
Rights Territory: Worldwide
YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Social Themes / Sexual Abuse
YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Family / Orphans & Foster Home
YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Coming of Age
Nikki Barthelmess is a journalist published everywhere from lifestyle blogs to survivalist magazines. She entered foster care in Nevada at twelve, and spent the next six years living in six different towns. During this time, Nikki found solace in books, her journal, and the teachers who encouraged her as a writer. She graduated with a degree in journalism from the University of Nevada, Reno. Nikki lives in Los Angeles with her husband and her pride-and-joy Corgi pup. She is the author of The Quiet You Carry, Quiet No More, and Everything Within and In Between.
“This hard-to-put-down novel takes on grim topics unflinchingly but also gives readers hope that honesty and kindness will prevail.” — Kirkus Reviews
“A raw, unflinching work of fiction that delves into the world of foster care.” — School Library Journal
“A thought-provoking story about abuse and the importance of speaking out.” — Foreword Reviews
“As beautiful as it is heartbreaking.” — Eric Smith, author of The Girl and the Grove
“This work of fiction, born of a searing moment in the lives of too many young girls, will get under your skin. Barthelmess’s story arrives right on time with a character who is trembling, yet defiant.” — Nikki Grimes, 2017 Winner of the Children’s Literature Legacy Award and author of the best-selling Bronx Masquerade
“Barthelmess crafts a stunning story of one girl’s fight against a system and a father, and her triumphant resilience in the face of trauma.” — Mark Oshiro, #1 New York Times bestselling coauthor of The Sun and the Star
2020 IPPY Award Silver Medalist (Young Adult Fiction)
2020 Moonbeam Children’s Book Awards – Gold Medalist (Young Adult Fiction – Mature Issues)